
this coming Saturday (Feb 21) will be mine and Shauna's five year wedding anniversary. so i have decided to list some things that i have either learned, or learned about myself, or changed in the past five years. firstly, let me say i have a very graceful and loving beautiful woman as a wife. she constantly affirms and loves me, and no card or gift i can buy will ever express my relief and surprise for how much she loves me. it really makes no sense...oh, and i love her a lot, too.
ok, so here goes (in no particular order):
1. i have more compasison than i let on: shauna has consistently made me to be a better person than i make myself out to be. i try to come across like a Hells Angels biker attitude sometimes, and she just melts that to reality. in essence, she has ruined my secret, and made me more girly in the process...
2. i am lazy. ok, i already knew this, but shauna is really always thinking and moving and cleaning and doing and awesome at thinking of others before herself. i (and i think this is mostly a guy thing) need to chill...EVERYDAY. we really balance each other out, but i never noticed how much "down time" i really took until we were married.
3. i am too busy. oxymoron, contradiction, whatever...sometimes, i cant turn my brain off...and in return, i fail to think of the more important things. this is something i have learned about myself. i dont disengage well sometimes, mentally at least.
4. i really don't need an iphone.
5. GPS devices lie...
6. Our wedding, although it may be forever dubbed "the silent film", was wonderful. my wife has a gift that she uses every week in our family...the gift of thrifty. we had the most cost effective green wedding on the face of the planet...yup, i'll challenge any vice president on that one. also, i like to spend a lot of money, so in the end it is a great thing that i didnt make many calls about our wedding...other than selecting all of the music and being doped up on pain meds the entire time (car wreck the day before).
7. The way I feel love changes...I am much different now than I was five years ago.
8. I am still younger than my wife...mentally and physically (although the weight AND the beard may make some think otherwise).
9. I am not as fast to react or talk instantly when I need to respond. Shauna has helped me understand that words hurt, looks are mean, and tone of voice really communicates much more than what is being said. I think it must suck sometimes to live in my learning laboratory.
10. I still shouldnt do the grocery shopping. Even with a list I am dangerous.
11. I still dont like talking on the phone...
12. I have gotten much better at around the house fix it projects...I installed my first toilet last year with the help of encouragement and cheerleading from shauna (granted she saw the $200 in labor we were saving but it grew me nonetheless)
13. There are some things Shauna and I should not do together (like going to bed bath and beyond; or maybe even golfing). We love each other, but we have learned some healthy boundaries.
14. Shauna is a horrible liar...that makes it challenging to include her in my practical jokes at times.
15. My wife has a much more convincing anger than me...that is why I made her handle our recent "phone" confrontation with a repair co. Guess what...she killed them and it was vicious...it was such a turn on
There are many more things I am sure I could write. But at this moment, this is all that is coming to mind: God has richly blessed me with a beautiful woman who is way (WAY) out of my league...the past five years have made me feel that life has just begun. I dont even remember or want to think about life without her.

What a risk...I am glad I (and she) took it,
n
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